Under the stars we shall unite!

 

 

 

 

 

Please love me back, 

why can't you see my love? 

Why can't you feel my love? 

Why you are so cruel?

My master!

I love you more than earth itself.

When will you give me a chance to please you?

When will you let me touch your tenderness?

When will you enter into my core of this form?

Why this distance between us?

Why keep denying the fact as truth as fire?

Why you reject to apprehend what is so obvious?

I wanna feel your bosom,

I wanna sense your life form. 

My love,

Come to me to hold my hand for this lifetime.

There shall be no regrets,

There shall be only happiness all around.

In the openness of nature we shall make love,

Under the stars we shall unite our body and soul!

No hesitations,

No turn backs,

It's pure as the heaven,

It's as sharp as the hell.

Come and have it,

This slave is only yours, and truly yours.

Love me,

Love me back.

I am waiting for you......

Do not complain
you do not have which
he is not your fate
Nonetheless
I am waiting for you......

Oh my heart!
You don’t bring complain
on my lips
it is your own luck
it is his kindness
not his oppression
he is separated from me
but he is still close to me

Oh my heart!
do not complain
which i loved
he has never expressed
his love for me
he did not peace me
he never gave me tranquility

Oh my heart!
you are looking for that person
who did not love me
I have understood
he was not my fate.

Oh my heart!
do not complain!
Nonetheless
I am waiting for you......
Come and get me Oh my heart!

I miss you, my ........

I miss you, my ........

Longing nostalgic at a lone hilly porch,
Etches in the mind, rushing through my veins,
Making me so frail as a rain night torch
Seeking n’ locating some dull gray stains

Summon up the taste of caress you gave
To the tasteless days of poet unknown
Being beloved… beatific alone.
Who loves to hold on to the dreams n’ rue
But you take me out to the fairy meadows
How can I forget the strength you bestow?
To my will so shattered that I can’t go

So great thy nature that compares to none
Whenever I need, you are always there
Asking for nothing…. never in return
You are content with just holding me near
Why you look so deeply into my face
Oh………. my little lovely cup of tea!
I am missing you so much; come to me.

Shade of truth!

Like a shade of truth,
for all who need that proof,
sanity is lost,
as loose water drops,
crawling dusty walls,
when reality fails,
desperate for touch,
not asking that much,
worse than anything,
when of all you think, 
is that hope is gone,
alone . . . !

Whispering wind . . . !

We ventured as strangers,
Don't know how it ends.

I think it is our destiny to meet,
but our path seems to split.
...
We both need to grow,
A fact that I know.
You know I am very scared,
that you wont find me sacred,
and this thoughts bring me fears.
Hence helplessness tears.

My eyes will cry,
I don't think they will ever dry.
But I want you to know,
that I made a vow
of always remembering your
sweet and tender loving care,
you once shared.
In my dreams that never end.

Even though miles is between us now
No matter how close you are
I know we'll get together somehow
Simple I ask you to reconsider

My love! Hope . . .
You come to me . . . !  

Whispering wind will carry my love to you . . .
When you feel it come to me my love ! ! !

I miss you my friend

I joined as your classmate
as the new year began...
A year full of learning
while we become friends.
We shared and have been kind
as we worked and played.
Our friendship has grown
with each passing year . . .

You were my best friend,
My very best friend,
You made me happy,
Everyday,
You shared your great snacks,
You shared your best time,

So hear me out when I say
You were the light in my day
You were the moon in my night
You shine even now very bright

You are the best friend I still have
And I miss you Rags . . .

DON'T LEAVE ME AND GO ! ! !

Don't say staying with me is your greatest fear.
Makes me so feel so helpless and shiver.

 I can't do anything but cry hurtful tears.
If I had words. I'll tell you MY lacerates.

Can't see myself without you in this world.
Theres is no life without you, are my end.

I am, nothing, if you decide to go and leave.
Guess I'm not smart. Can't let you unnerve me.

Don't choose to go.
I Promise, I will never stop loving you so.

Just take me.
If you say you love me.
Why don't you take me?
Just take me. If you say you love me.

Do you love me so? If you do; Don't go ! ! !
DON'T LEAVE AND GO . . .
DO NOT GO ! ! !

My Love, EVIDENTLY!

Who owns these scrawny little feet? Death.

Who owns this bristly scorched looking face? Death.

Who owns these still working lungs? Death.

who owns this utility coat of muscles? Death.

Who owns these unspeakable guts? Death.

Who owns hese questionable brains? Death.

All this messy blood? Death.

These minimum-efficiency eyes? Death.

THis wicked little tongue? Death.

This occasional wakefulness? Death.

Given,stolen,or held pending trail? Death.

Who owns the whole rainy, stony earth? Death.

who owns all of space? Death.

who is stronger than life? Death.

who is strounger than hope? Death.

who is stronger than the will? Death.

Stronger than life? Death.

BUT

Who is stronger than death?

My Love, EVIDENTLY!

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart . . . I'll always be with you.

Good night,
Sleep tight.

My dear friends!

Running away from myself

Keep me preoccupied
Keep me busy, busy, busy
So I won't have to think
I don't want to think
Because it only brings me pain
I just keep running away from
My problems
Keep me busy
Give me a million things to do
So I can keep running away from myself.

I belong to you

". . .You must know me, I'm one of your secrets

You must know me, I'm one of your secrets

I belong to you

I belong to you

And you belong to me.

You must know me, I'm one of your secrets

From what I see, you're trying to hard to keep it

I belong to you,

And you belong to me.

Look at me, I'm your hearts keeper . . ."

If you love somebody!

If you love somebody
You better let it out
Don't hold it back
While you're trying to figure it out
Don't be timid
Don't be afraid to hurt
Run toward the flame, run toward the fire
Hold on for all your worth

Cause the only real pain
Your heart can ever know
Is the sorrow of regret
When you don't let your feeling show
So did you say it
Did you mean it
Did you lay it on the line, did you make it count
Did you look 'em in the eye & did they feel it
Did you say in time
Did you say out loud
Cause if you did, Hon
Then you lived some
And that feeling inside
That's called satisfied

Busy people walkin' by
I can't help but worry some
So many things to do
So little love gets done
Empty hearts everywhere
Drowning but dying of thirst
But if we want love, it's not that tough
Start by giving it first
It's easy to give
Baby, can't you see
just close your eyes
Open your heart and
do what comes naturally

Cause the only real pain
Your heart can never know
Is the feeling of regret
When you don't let your feelings show
So did you say it
Did you mean it
Did you lay it on the line, did you make it count
Did you look 'em in the eye & did they feel it
Did you say in time
Did you say out loud
Cause if you did Hon
Well then you lived some
And that feeling inside
That's called satisfied

Horses were made to run
And the sun was meant to shine above
And flowers were made to bloom
Then there's us
We were born
To love
We were born
To love
So did you say it
Did you mean it
Did you lay it on the line,
So did you say it
Did you mean it
Did you lay it on the line, did you make it count
Did you look 'em in the eye & did they feel it
Did you say in time
Did you say out loud, oh
Cause if you did Hon
Well then you lived some
And that feeling inside
That's called satisfied

My dream boy!

Dream Boy Part I

I dream of you,
In my life as a glue.
My dream boy, O!
You make me glow.

You are my first kiss,
You are my multiple bliss.

Thirst,
And lust,
Bring it on next,
We will have no rest.

Night is black,
Our darkness is back.

Burning desires,
Craving impulses,
Rushing hormones,
Reddening eyes.

Two great souls,
Fighting to reach abyss.
In the battle field -
Friction yield.

No mercy,
All spicy.

Nails penetrate deeply,
Epithelium slit out clearly,
Blood oozes,
Scars raises.

Hunger increases with every passing second,
Wanting hard to eat,
Instincts creep in with every minute delayed,
Feeling this novel heat.

Now,
Me, this low,
You are part of me,
As I am part of you!

Don't give up!

Be strong,
Stay long,
Never abandon,
and don't weaken.

Do not choose,
To loose.
Say cheese,
And smile please.

Don't ever give up,
But . . . screw up,
Every one and every thing,
For only some one and one thing.

Be honest,
To become the greatest.
And so shall . . .
This will,
Change sad catapiller,
Into extravagant butter-flier.

You and I.

You love me,
I love you.
It's a mini story,
With no glory.

Time can't kill it,
Age won't block it.

We live on rainbow,
Happiness never bow.

Every day is heaven,
The gift you have given,
So precious,
And so gracious.

You promise,
I promise.

You and I together,
Shall live forever . . .

Promise broken.

You're gone

And I'm left alone,
None to share,
None to answer.

Promise broken,
Truth unspoken,
Words unkempt,
Dreams swept.

It never alarmed me,
It never touched me,
That you'll ditch me,
That you'll cheat me.

Pushed me into hell,
Thrown into never ending well.
Shot me in my heart,
Stabbed me in my soul.

I am so dumb,
For having blind spot.
I am so numb,
For making you a lot.

And . . .
I am very sorry,
For letting you be my
Life's priority.

With love.

There's you,
I love you.

I shall do,
And it's true.
Why I do,
I have no clue.

But I do,
What I do.
It's clear,
You're near.

Very safe in my heart,
Very deep in my thought.
Sweeping all my tears,
Cleaning all my cowers.

You're here
That's all I wanna hear.
With Love,
Your dove!

Dream!

Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.


And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

So tell me dear!

You are here,
So no fear.
You are there,
So lot of tear.

I am here,
So tell me dear,
My insecurity queer?
Will you resolve forever?

I am there,
So how you hear?
My heart's ache jeer?
Will you shear?

Broken heart cannot talk

Even before I the dream could finish, I waked up.

It's so hard to me daily keep fighting. I am not sure when I will be tired of fighting. I wanna let go the control. These feelings are not weak just to disappear from the mind's crust. They are too strong, too way ahead of my strength. I underestimated those feelings. The fight, win but they keep coming back like a virus. They are out numbered to my fight capabilities.

I wish I could just give up. I really wish that . . . do not know why I am so reluctant to let go myself. Trying hard, I know I am not trying hard enough. But it's all what I can do. There's nothing that I can do about it.

Can I?

I am strong.

I am done with the fear of doing perpetration. This helplessness, this ridiculous fears, this unjustifiable thoughts. I will fight back. Come on try me.

I am not gong to cry any more, at least I hope not, tired of being afraid.

I survived living hell these last months, and I am still standing here. I am the strong one. You failed terribly in not being able to control me. The fact that I am still right here means I am the strong, and you are the weak. I am wining the battle; will not give up. I did not move even an inch, I did not act in a way that will sway me away from my actual path. Those terrible hallucinations will end, those illusions will vanish, have faith.

Haunting will stop. I will make them stop. You cannot kill me, your whispers will not make me die. No matter if I had to fight again and again. I will fight, each and every time you manage to come up.

With pain

Hi my love,

How are you? How is your health? You doing good? Are you happy? All I think is only of you, every day, every hour, every minute, and even seconds, will you believe me if I say there goes no minute without thinking of you? I do not know how I am doing it, but, every time I try to avoid you, my heart keeps only beating for you. It always misses you a lot.

Chat, do you miss me? Don't you love me? Tell me honestly, don't you love me? Tell me what to do with these feelings that I have for you? Please let me know what I have to do with those? I am not sure, why I got feelings for you when you do not even love me. Do you love me Chat? I believe you do. No one here believe that you love me. They say to me that, do not be a fool. But Chat, they forget one thing, that I love you a lot and lot.

I keep asking God daily, why I am in love? If I have to live without you, why this much of pain? Why I am missing him so much? Why I prefer death to life without him? But there is no answer from Him. He is really enjoying seeing me here crying for your absence. I do not know how to give solace to my aching heart, there seems to be no panacea for this wounded heart.

You are so much gifted, you are able to live without me, but for me every day is challenge for my own survival. I do not know why I am still enduring all this pain. I wonder even if you think of me or not. How is life without me? You like it? I see daily hell. I am so much addicted to you, your memories come alive in front of my eyes. They are so much fresh, as if they happened yesterday night . . . when we are so happy together. You and I laughing and running and competing with each other . . .

There's no one here for me, I am all alone, and my heart is not seeking any one's company. It literally rejects anyone who tries to come near me. Stupid heart thinks pain is sweet. The pain you gifted me. When I come to home, I see only whole bunch of emptiness in it. Before your smiling face used to welcome me, your warm hugs used to be my resting place from my hard day. Now I get only silent home. I have to live all the memories that I had with you again and again . . . bringing me tears one after another, with no scope of ending.

I still see in the vacuum in the hope to get a glimpse of you. But you never are visible. All I see is pitch black. I smell your clothes and think you are still here, I do not even dare to wash them. I do not know why I am still so mad about you. I do not know why I got this strong unbreakable feelings on you. You just gave up on me. I am not able to do the same. I am not able to let you go . . . my love is not letting you go, not permitting me to move on. They are pulling me deep into abyss of sadness again and again not letting me to come out that well.

I wish Thanatos hugs me tight and never lets me go. But I think He is not interested in me, He wants to suffer, perhaps. I am mourning a thousands of times a hour. Not able to bury you. How are you able to live without me? Do not you have the same pain that I have. Ha! So stupid I am, if you really loved me why would you leave me. It's as simple as that. My friend asked me, "If he loves you, then why even he did not mail you?" I got no answer for that. I stared outside into the empty streets.

What should I do with these strong, sturdy, and reluctant, persistent feelings on you Chat? Are they just meaningless, incredible, powerful pain that I am going through for nothing?

Stop it Chat, stop this pain. I cannot take it. I cannot take it any more. Stop it. Put an end to it, do anything but stop it. Please make it stop, the pain. Stop it.

Stop this abysmal misery my love, I pray . . .

With pain,
Your love.