I wanted a perfect ending.

I wanted a perfect ending.
Now I've learned,
the hard way,
that some poems don't rhyme,
and
some stories don't have a clear:

beginning,
middle, and
end.

Life is about not knowing,
having to change,
taking the moment and
making the best of it,
without knowing what's going to happen next.

Delicious Ambiguity.


Good evening.

Artists and poets are obsessed about their work.

I am a girl who is silent,
Taking your all non sense.

I live in my own world,
it doesn't mean I don't understand real world.
The way I comprehend the world is more than you.

You guys drinking,
Smoking and
addicted to alcohol and the ecstasy it gives
don't dare to judge me and point figure at me.

What you do in your real life is your choice,
What I do in my life is my choice.

I don't ask a question and laugh at you,
don't use my mind as yours.

My words are mine,
don't give them to me and control me.

I am more than intelligent,
you don't buy that, then get lost.

If you can't understand me,
It's not my mistake that you got no brains and you are moron.

 

Artists and poets are obsessed about their work,
There's nothing wrong about it.

They are meant to be obsessed. 

I am very cold !

I am very cold, I know goodness hurts more badly than badness and physical violence and violence itself and aggressive nature. And you thought my goodness is my biggest weakness. It's my weapon.

It's hurting you right? Very badly, disgusti

ngly, insanely your conscience is eating you from inside. Making you to pull your intestines outside your stomach via your mouth.

You wish now if she could have punished me.
She could have scolded me,
abused me,
reacted badly with me.
And people ask why don't you fight back?
Why don't you reply other's bad reactions?

It's firstly waste of time and energy.
It's waste of my emotional energy.
It's negativity, I don't surround with negative energy.
Not any more. I ignore . . . !

I see ten steps ahead in life,
I don't see now.

Your badness cannot make my goodness disappear.
I punish by not punishing.
I love your soul,
I told you in human's are capable of doing good and bad.

Love is the only thing that keeps me going.

If someone is rejecting the person
who loves the person a lot.
You are not rejecting that person
who claims to love you and only.

You are rejecting

the love,
the happiness,
the feeling of neediness.

Love is the only feeling that will never die out.
It stays and it sits in heart silently,
traveling with you all through life.

The ones who loves you are gonna loose nothing,
but the one who got loved by the person gonna loose everything.
Irony of life . . . !

My love is not an easy one,
My love is very hard to understand.
But my love is only thing that keeps me going.
My definition of love is what makes me fight for what I don't have.

I don't care if you are kicking me,
I don't care if you are pushing me away from you,
I don't care if you are annoyed at my actions,
I don't care if you are irritated for being me myself.

I just only love you and love you.
I will come and sleep on your lap, dream again and again.
When ever I am alone,
I cry out for you.

I don't care if you hate me but . . .
Please just be with me.
If you ignore me and throw me away from your life.
I am not going to loose anything.
I will gain another person's solace who would want my love.

But . . .

You only got the shadow of the past.
What will you have when I am gone?
Only a lost feeling how it is to be loved by a selfless person.

Not money can buy you,
Not property can fetch you,
Not family can give you.

I pity you,
I am sorry for you.
I am gone and far gone.
You lost the most precious . . . !

I don't hate you,
I only love you.