Isn't someone missing me?

I feel that you won't cry for my absence, I just know - you forgot me long back ago as if I am nothing. Am I that unimportant . . . ? Am I so insignificant . . . ? Am I so worthless . . . ? Isn't something missing in your life when I am out of your life? Isn't you missing me? Am I so cursed?

Even though I'm the only one who loved you so much, more than anything and any one, truly, madly and deeply, you won't try for me, not now. O my love! Though I'd die to know you love me and only me, and there is none in your life other than me, you just don’t care. I'm all alone, loneliness is creeping in my blood vessels, my love! Isn't you missing me when I am bleeding out here?

I just breathe deep and cry out loud, with the tears pouring and pouring, None to wipe my tears, they flow and flow into the ocean of sadness. "Isn't someone missing me?" I really know you won't just try for me, even though I am dying from inside day by day - my lifespan is decreasing Your absence is just drawing up the flesh off of me. Dirt and worm both have a claim on my body. Do you know how bleeding it is?. . .

I bleed out every drop of my blood in my body, knowing you just don't care. And if I sleep just to dream of you I'll wake without you there! So much of torture, how to show you my tears of blood, why can't you feel my love? What have I done to you except loving you from my heart and soul? This pain is so much deep, and so real, I am not sure if my wounds will ever heal. My love there are things that time cannot just heal.

I’ve been living a lie, every hour, every day, every minute, there’s nothing inside without you in my life, I’ve been waiting a thousand years; it seems that when I got to open my eyes I am totally without a thought, without a voice, without a soul; don't let me die here; just please bring me back to life. I am more than a piece of meat, with no spirit in it you took it away from me with you, I am only a dead meat with speechless eyes..

Save me from the nothing I’ve become now that I know what I’m without you, you just can't leave me and walk away from my life, breathe into me and make me alive. Bring  me back to life. Give my soul back to me. Don't let me be a Zombie. My spirit is you, without you nothing is real. No wealth, no ruin, no silver no gold - Nothing satisfies me but your love. You are so much into my core, now that you are gone and no hope of you walking into me back, I choose the hug of Thanatas, loose myself - forget everything in his gentle arms . . . he's calling my name so sweetly!.