My mother!

My mother,

(I) was born in pain
on leash, in chain
Deserted in famine of passionate
with open appealing eyes to rain
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My mother,

Drinking you blood,
Floating in your liquid,
Mother I grown from a small cell,
To a multi - organ creature in your belly.


My mother,

Seeing darkness,
Hearing your tender voice
Kicking your kindness,
Smothering your grace


My mother,

Never let me go from your embrace,
Keep me safe and sound in your lace.
Teach me how to fight this ignorance,
Allow me to survive in tolerance.


My mother,

Be gentle and kind,
Be soft and tender,
Keep me always in your mind,
Never kick me out of your ledger


My mother,

... now I live in tomb
nagging my doom
If I knew the world is so dark and gloomy
I would never came out of my mother's womb

If you really loved me

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have made me cry,

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have left me in my misery.

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have gifted me pain,

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have granted me tears' rain.

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have taken my happiness,

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have ripped me of my bliss.

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have written a bad fate,

If you really loved me
You wouldn't have chose not to fight for me.  

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have let me go . . . !

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have made me say goodbye.

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have to lie.

If you really loved me,
You wouldn't have let me die.

Alone in life

Alone To Cry,
Alone To Laugh,
Alone To Smile,
Alone To Frown.

Alone To Live,
Alone To Die,
Alone To Wander,
Alone To Discover.

Alone In Pain,
Alone In Hurt,
Alone In Joy.

Alone In The Morning,
Alone In The Night,
Alone In The Afternoon,
Alone In This Life,
Alone In This World.

Alone In Boredom,
Alone In Knowledge,
Alone In This State.

Alone With People,
Alone At School,
Alone Right Now,
Alone When I Was Born,
Alone When I Will Die... :(
Alone To Laugh,
Alone To Smile,
Alone To Frown.

Alone To Live,
Alone To Die,
Alone To Wander,
Alone To Discover.

Alone In Pain,
Alone In Hurt,
Alone In Joy.

Alone In The Morning,
Alone In The Night,
Alone In The Afternoon,
Alone In This Life,
Alone In This World.

Alone In Boredom,
Alone In Knowledge,
Alone In This State.

Alone With People,
Alone At School,
Alone Right Now,
Alone When I Was Born,
Alone When I Will Die... :(

A fan wrote to me! Love it!

Specially for you....olivia.....
My red heart is blue,
because I’m missing you.
Every day, I think about you,
and I imagine how great
every hour,
every minute,
and every second would be
if you were here with me.
Every night, when I lie in bed,
I dream that you’re beside me,
holding me close to you.
If you were, I’d whisper in your ear,
how much I love you.
Since you came into my life
nothing has been the same.
I’ve experienced love to its fullest,
and I’ve tasted a beauty that never ends,
because you’re where my happiness begins.
I’m incomplete without you, and
I’ll never stop loving you.
You’re the world to me,
in brilliant colors.
You’re my best friend,
a favorite song that will never end.
And together is where we should be.
Someday soon, I pray,
that you’ll walk through the door
and take this heartache away.

Vengeance is pointless

Anger is the power,
to fight the evil.
Mold it into your strength,
A property that would make you strong.

If you let it, it will destroy you,
Relieve it, forgive them.

Focus and determination,
Will teach you to learn your destiny.

I wont given up on myself,
Never,
I will not give up on you,
Never.

Vengeance is pointless,
it will never help me.
Why would I not seek vengeance,
Why not I avenge my past?

Pain is what I need to crave into a beautiful statue.
They made you what you are now.

Forgiveness is truly powerful,
The truth will be eclipsed, 
it's the fact of universe.

But eclipse has an end.
Sun will come and
Spread it's light on earth,
Making earth lively and green.

Have patience,
Abandon the anger,
Mold it to turn into your weapon,
To fight the evil.

With no pity,
With no hesitation.

My God will come from the sky.

I am afraid,
I got fear.

I am not scared of you,
I don't fear you,

Tell me my girl,
What are you scared of?
Why you are so fearful?

I see failure,
I see disappointment.

Don't loose the hope,
Don't gain the despair.

Have faith,
Never abandon the truth,
Never leave what you believe.

Pursue your goals,
Truth has a power,
An invisible power to move mountains,
Stony heart is nothing,
Cold blooded soul is not the end.

Diamond also melts,
Only it needs a powerful heart.
Boiling prayers,

My God will come from the sky,
Will fall onto earth for you,
Have faith!
My sweet girl.

Don't fear,
Don't ever my dear.

You seem to be so untouchable.

You took away my fear,
You showed me the path,
You should be standing by me,
To save this world,

but you prefer to rather,
Leave me and go.

You are the reason I am still alive,
I will always have this gratitude on you.
Nothing can change this fact,
That I love you no matter what.

Nothing can stop my love,
Nothing can make it not reach you.

You have to feel my love,
You have to answer my prayers,
You are my destiny,
And nothing can change that fact.

You are the reason for my peace of mind,
You are the reason behind my smile,
My joy and my smile,
Where have you gone; away two miles.

It's time,
To let you go and leave my path.
You are happy,
Without me,
It's time,
To move on with my life.

I have tried my best to change your path,
But you seems to be so untouchable.

Ruthless and merciless my God,
It's time for me to move on.

Stay happy,
Stay strong,
Stay alive,
Stay good,

Don't ever repent your decision.
I pray to the God to give me,
Courage and
Strength,
To let you go . . .

My love it's time to say goodbye.
I have tried a lot and lot.
You seem to be so untouchable.